On July 23, my beautiful little Hilary was put to sleep. My heart still hurts and I miss my cat terribly, especially on days when I feel like I need a friend who will listen. I know she's in a better place now and she's with her sister once again. I hope some day I will be forgiven for having to put her down.

When my little girl took her last breath, I held her close and cried very hard. It still breaks me heart to think about it and sometimes I can still see her after she died. I feel horrible and her death has only made it harder for me. Life has been crap as of late and I hope that it will someday get better.